Good for what ails you

Starter Prayer:  "Dear and Divine Physician, I need all of the medicine you are willing to offer me.  Give me what I can handle, when I can handle it, and may I let you be the Handler."

Years ago I was treated by a doctor for my hyper reactivity to poison ivy.  Every day for about two months I had to ingest poison ivy oil  in increasing doses.   I still break out when I make contact with the dreaded plant, but not quite as drastically as pre-treatment.

Then there are (and continue to be) the vaccinations -- polio, mmr, and now flu or shingles.  Take a bit of the virus in and it strengthens your resistance when you encounter an attack.

Good for what ails you.  A little bit of the bad makes you less vulnerable in the presence of what is bad.

That makes some kind of sense, I suppose, but there is the turn around with the Divine Physician.   Unlike human medicine that increases my resistance to intrusive or toxic agents, the medicine of the divine physician weakens me and decreases my resistance to God.  In some ways, a taste of what is Good makes me MORE susceptible to the effects of the GOOD.

It seems that the more doses of God's Love that are administered, the more I want.   It seems that the more I see of my own brokenness the more I see of it.  It seems that the more God reveals to me about God the more mysterious God seems.   The more I "know" the more I know how much there is about God that I will never know.

One of my mentors encouraged me long, long ago, about the vastness, the breadth and the depth of God's love.   He said, Pamela, be grateful that God's truth usually comes to us by the eyedropperful.  Whether it is the truth about God, or the truth about me, or the truth about how all of that truth works in my life, my guess is that it is good that "self administration" of medicine is not an option.

I would probably overdose -- or avoid completely!