Why do I kneel?

This week's scriptures draw us into the presence of the shepherd who is king.

I have been lost at times.  Perhaps sometimes I have been led astray. But to be honest, I have to admit that there were times when I have chosen to wander.

But, you, my shepherd, pursued me.  On the days when I stepped willingly on trails that could lead to harm or even mortal danger, you were there, gentle and persistent shepherd. I didn't know that then. I was so blind. Why, even on the days when I basked in lush fullness and ease, I thought I had made my own way to that place! I had no clue that it was you, only you, who had guided me patiently and lovingly to safe pasture.

I was so proud...and so self assured.

No more...

Now I KNOW that it was you all along. My mind continues to be transformed with the knowledge that my self-determined path will be foolhardy. My heart has surrendered to you even as I continue to meander through the world's terrain. Now I see how dangerous and deceptive are the maps and guides that would tempt me to ignore your simple counsel: Follow me.

Now I pause regularly on the path.  I listen for your voice.  I seek the comfort of your arms to embrace me,  and yes, to lift me up and carry me when I am weak.

I bow before you shepherd king. I climb willingly into your arm.  And I trust that if I am unable make the climb on my own, you will lift me onto your shoulders.

My heart sings your praises and my lips proclaim that you are the one who reigns over my life.

Thank you.... I love you...Amen.