What's at the heart of your plans?--originally posted July 2007

One of the comments on the previous post spoke about the anger that may arise when the reality hits that one's plans are unraveling. It seems that the degree of the anger is directly related to one's investment in the outcome of the plans. I wonder, when I get angry about "my" plans coming apart, is it an opportunity to learn something that reaches far beyond the plan?

Perhaps I have begun to see my effectiveness as a critical and valid indicator of my value in the eyes of others. I know that is the case when I feel hurt or embarrassed when results don't match my objectives or goals. Perhaps I am holding on to my current plan as a way to respond to previous disappointments. If that is what is happening, I am staying in the past and missing what is being given right NOW.

When I become increasingly upset about a necessary change in my plans, it is an opportunity to examine the intentions of my heart. When I am focused upon Jesus above all else, I can genuinely express sadness or disappointment without fear of judgement or recrimination. I know that Jesus meets me in the pain of sacrificial service to others. Prayerfully and honestly reflecting upon my disappointment may reveal aspects of my hopes and expectations that are directed toward me and my own needs and desires. By noticing where "I" am in my plans, I can be open to whatever surrender (of my will) is necessary for God's healing grace to break through.

Finally, I must also remember the wisdom of today's Gospel lesson.

Read Luke 10:1-11
Jesus reminds us that the disciple is to be unencumbered by all concerns other than the focus upon the message of peace and the presence of the Kingdom of God. Discipleship is not an easy plan for life and it rarely provides a speedy glimpse of rewarding results. It may be a dangerous, frustrating plan that will as likely lead to rejection as it will lead to welcoming acceptance.

However, it is the fundamental plan placed upon our heart when we are claimed and called by God. It is a plan that draws us into the heart of God...a place where our value and power is grounded in joy, peace and love that surpasses anything the world can provide.