Do you want to be made well?

John 5:2-9

Now in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate there is a pool, called in Hebrew Beth-zatha, which has five porticoes. In these lay many invalids-blind, lame, and paralysed. One man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had been there a long time, he said to him, 'Do you want to be made well?' The sick man answered him, 'Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up; and while I am making my way, someone else steps down ahead of me.' Jesus said to him, 'Stand up, take your mat and walk.' At once the man was made well, and he took up his mat and began to walk.

Wow...I see myself in this reading!

As I walk through my morning prayer time, my infirmities of mind, emotion, spirit (and sometimes body) gather around the pool of God's healing presence. Christ approaches me as I sit in my prayer chair...and He says to me "Do you want to be made well?"

On one level I answer enthusiastically....Oh yes, My Lord!

And then this worry, or that resistance, or another doubt come forward with all sorts of major and minor concerns about things I name impossible or conditional. I hesitate at the edge of the healing pool.

Why??

Could it be that if I consent to the elimination of all that obstructs the flow of God's amazing potential for whole and abundant love and service, I will find myself with people, in places and involved in situations that are beyond my imagination?

Probably.

I hear Him say: Pamela....pick up your mat and walk!

I don't know where I am going....but I am on my way!